4th rural stint

Dear S,

         If colours can describe the 4 locations I've been placed for the past 7 weeks, I could say the Green would be the colour best describe my current location. The town is wedged between two mountains, there's sugar cane and other plantation farms. I see clouds just above my head, and covering the mountains, as if I could touch them.
         It has lesser support compare to the last placement, better than no support in my 2nd location. I'm staying in a moveable box, and realise that actually all I need for shelter is quite basic: A bed, a table, a closet, a toilet, a shower, and a TV. To be strict, some of the things mentioned here are considered luxurious. Probably with an add on kitchen, I would be ready to have the whole box moving with me wherever I'll be next year, without worrying to find a new rental place. That is if I have a land to move to though. Haha.
         And back to the colours: I would say light green for my first placement, light yellow for my second, orangish brown for the 3rd, all mainly colour palate from the surrounding plants and lands of those locations.
                                      
                                                                                                                        jy

我可能不會愛你

M,


            慶幸ＰＹ介紹《我可能不會愛你》。單在第一集的片頭曲字幕發現是林依晨、陳柏霖和瞿佑寧導演的戲劇，，我就告訴ＭＹ這會是個品質保證的好劇！果然真令我慢慢上癮，在明天開工前跟上進度看完五集。我喜歡又青和大仁的特別友情，也喜歡他們探討的各個問題和見解。其中兩個想專注的題目：初老和熟女的症狀，都說得貼切。我也喜歡戲劇的精美畫面質感，真的是部值得一看的原創好劇。　而且也看見了在瞿導過去不同戲劇裏的出現的演員們如陸明君和黃志瑋，回味了大家的演技和成長。如果你也想看劇，就嘗試這部劇吧！
　　　　最後《我可能不會愛你》這個標題真好玩。到底是哪一個解釋呢？
　　　　
　　　　我大概不會愛你？
　　　　我不會愛你，可能？
　　　　我可能不會愛你
　　　　我現在愛你，卻可能不會愛你？
　　　　我可能愛你？
　　　　我可能會愛你？
 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　ｊｙ

Thank you, MY!

Dear MY,

              Thank you for a wonderful day. It was fun, trying out the new breakfast place, walking down the city street, going to the museum which was surprisingly fun, walking along the windy beach, watched japanese drama, and of course had a great French dinner with you, and with K and R. Thank you for your company, even when you are obviously sick, and not on top of your form.
              You are the greatest gift. And you deserve the very best in every way. You will.
                                                                                                                                     
                                                                                                                                            jy

Finished 3rd rural stint

Dear Z,

           Finished 3rd rural stint yesterday. Went around and have a bit of sight seeing before I left the place.          
           Went up to the hill, watched "Real Steel" with 4 strangers, which was very entertaining. I couldn't contain myself from cheering and jumping on my seat for Atom, and Max is so cool and cute!
           When I said my final goodbye, one of my colleague mentioned that I looked more relaxed now. Well, 3 days of rest, and 3 more weeks in the 4th location to go.
            Visited a gold mine battery prior leaving. There's so much hard work in processing gold that one lady said that she appreciate more of her golden necklace now. People in the past are already really clever and remarkable, I wonder whether we have done them proud now with more advancement, or actually not much more.
                                                                                                       jy

目送

S，

       終于讀著龍應台的《目送》。與《野火集》的憤怒熱誠不同，我感受到老去的沉重無奈傷感。有點憂鬱，但這是現實。是現在還敢說年輕的我不想承受的事實。文字寫的應該也是我父母的聲音，那聆聽何嘗不是一種了解。

　　
      分享一二散文語錄： 

　　我慢慢地，慢慢地了解到，所謂父女母子一場，只不過意味著，你和他的緣分就是今生今世不斷地在目送她的背影漸行漸遠。～《目送》　

　　　

       幸福就是，生活中不必時時恐懼。～《幸福》

　　我們拼命地學習如何成功衝刺一百米，但是沒有人教過我們：你跌倒時，怎麽跌得有尊嚴；你的膝蓋破得血肉模糊時，怎麽清洗傷口、怎麽包紮；你一頭栽下時，怎麽治療内心淌血的創痛，怎麽獲得心靈深層的平靜；心像玻璃一樣碎了一地時，怎麽收拾？　～《跌倒--寄K》

                                                                                                  還正在閲讀中的jy

路邊的警惕

G, 

       駕在空無一人的長路，路邊的各個十字架和花圈，提醒我這裡有人喪失性命。

       那些是不是鮮花，是不是每天有人在換？

       如果樹立十字架和花圈在路邊是不是更能警惕駕車人士，要小心駕駛？

       善意的謊言，避免死亡的可能，是不是會被原諒？

       我又異想天開了。另一個廣告點子。

                                                                                                   jy

Happy birthday!

Dear G,

                  Today, I'm thankful for the birthday wishes that I received. My current colleagues found out about my birthday, and threw me a kind-of surprise birthday morning tea gathering within an hour. MY and SF sent me sms birthday wishes. XR, YJ and D sent me Facebook birthday wishes message 2 days ago. M wrote me a letter telling me how she spent her year when she was at my current age, hinting that I should find someone soon.
                  And that's about it. Regretfully, nothing on Facebook at all, as a proof that switching off birthday notification, means that no one will really remember your birthday anymore by heart, as supposingly FB will remember it for you. Well, the truth hurts, but who cares about those who do not care.
                    I'm grateful for what I have. And I'm not going to moan over what I could have had. And as my eyes getting heavier, I hope tonight is a good quiet birthday night, for I'm on call tonight for work. The birthday is going to end in one hour time here anyway. Thank you love ones, I promise I'll become a better person.

                                                                                                                                               jy

p/s: 20/10/2011: Just found out that one of client I saw yesterday had the same birthday, and so was another client that I met last week. They are the 4th and 5th people I came across having the same birthday. Cool.
21/10/2011：Two facebook message, 1 msn message and 1 anonymous message. I'm getting obsessed of this.
22/10/2011: MY allowed me to have my way today, even when most of the time I'm still indecisive. Had a birthday dinner with her and K and R. It was surprisingly nice food. :) Cool. How long can this celebration last? Too long now. Haha. 

天才

親愛的YJ， 

        閲讀你揮灑自如的文字，感到天才和凡人之別。Reality Check。

                                                                                  jy

48 hours weekend at work

Dear Y,

             What a weekend! On call 48 hours, following normal working hours next day. Worked solo with constant workload from 8am-11pm for the 2 days with assistance from other teams and hence was mentally exhausted by 36 hours. All I want to do is just go home and sleep. Yet there are still things to do. As fatigue kicks in, the effectiveness gets sloppy, and I started to question the decision I made. I don't know how the others do it, but perhaps the more experience you are, the faster and more effective you work. Well, I got through it, and that's an achievement itself, hey!
                                                                                                                  jy
                                                                                                                        

成長的果園

Dear MY,


          獻給你席慕容的《禪意(二)》。特別是Bold的文字。




         当一切都已过去
         我知道
         我会把你忘记


         心上的重担卸落
         请你 请你原谅我
         生命原是要不断地受伤和不断地复原


        世界 仍然是一个
        在温柔地等待著我成熟的果园 


         天 这样蓝
         树 这样绿
         生活 原来可以这样的安宁和美丽 




p/s: 其實想的和原來的詩有點不同。腦子把兩首詩放在一起了。 


                                                                 jy 

3rd rural stint

Dear Z,

             Started my 3rd rural stint a week ago.
             It is located in an ex-gold mining town and hence the architeture of buildings in the town and where I'm working are older and full of history.  There's better access to TV channels and assistance. The boss and colleagues are helpful and friendly, and the location is nearer to where the home base is, hence able to travel back over the weekends if I'm not working.
            Like being able to blog here from home. I guess I have been so dependent on home internet, and without it, I felt I'm out of touch with the world. Since when we have been so dependent on internet that we are kind of addict to it? When we were young, there's no handphone, no internet, yet everyone still manage to keep in touch with each other, but probably not as fast and convenient though.
             Anyway, another 3 weeks to go until the next location!
                                                                                                                        jy