不再是

 S，


       不是你的唯一。
       不是你的家人。
       此地無銀三百兩。
       MY說這是吃醋。
       原本就不是彼此唯一的關係。
       不稀罕不是你畫圈子裏的人 。
       只想當初那麽天真攤開心，
       是不是有點傻有點多情？
       友情本質不該有期望。
       可多年后又爲何失望。
       而關閉了心扉，不再努力。
       變成你所謂不再熟悉的人了。
       以爲友情淡卻固的我，
       醒了。卻相信。

                                                                      jy
                                                                                
      
      
       
      
     

Christmas 2012

Dear Y,

            This year's Christmas was the first Christmas that I've celebrated more. Mainly because of a senior colleague who is a bit obsessed about it, and also the current workplace nature where Christmas is a happy day for our clients.
            So there was dressed up day, Games nights, secret Santa, Christmas goodies bag, Christmas cards, Christmas wishes, visiting Christmas events, Christmas decorations......And as I was working during Christmas eve and Christmas day, the spirit of celebrating Christmas has influenced me to dress up and join the others in some of their Christmas routine. Today, there was the Santa and his elves giving out present round to happy clients, crackers, Christmas lunch of cold turkey and ham with berries desert. At night, we went to our friends place and cooked Curry Laksa, which is not very Christmasy, but nice.
          Anyway, Christmas is not just about the above, but originally a religous celebration. Hence why my previous lesser involvement. However, I did enjoy heart warming Christmas cartoons, movies, the shopping centre Christmas decorations and carols, hoped that the shopping centre Santa Claus would give me a lolly, and was once secretly hoping that Santa Claus would come to my house, and filled my stocking with gift, although back then, my stocking was the small ones that I wore to school. He never came much to my dismay.
           The kids today were mostly awed by the gifts given by Santa, and even the little Elves told one of the kids that whether he could have that particular gift as well. One little kid said that he feels that Santa has given too many gifts... And I said, well, it's never too many. :)
           I think as I was so influenced this year for celebrating Christmas  that I might also get the post Christmas withdrawal that others predicted my senior colleague would have. We'll see about it tomorrow.
           Anyway, have a Merry Christmas! Hope yours was as fun as mine.
                       
                                                                                                   Best wishes,
                                                                                                       jy

A Kid again

Dear X,

             This evening, I went to a Christmas Games Night organised by a senior. We played games such as Harry Potter Uno, Taboo, Pictionary, Santa Chocolate cutting game and parcel unwrapping, getting small little Christmasy gift.   I'm not sure whether because we are all working with children and that we still have the inner child in us, or vice versa, or not even related, everyone was into it, being slightly competitive, having fun and I felt like being a kid again.
             I guess just stop taking yourself seriously, have a great laugh, have fun,  play, and everyone can become a child again anytime! :)
                                                                                                              jy
         

你是誰？？

親愛的你：

          你是誰？
          怎麽不說話？
          你看了我的信。
          卻沉默不語。
          享受窺探，卻怕被發現。
          膽小鬼。

                                                        jy 
          

我可能？不！會愛你。

Ｓ，　

       虐了１２集，我終于在最後一集為又青和大仁鬆口氣。
       和相愛相知相敬心思適合且能無話不談的人在一起，不管有沒有高潮起伏，即使平凡但卻會是幸福快樂。好的交往，是會讓人心廣神怡，身心舒暢，變得更好。微笑開心的時間多過流眼淚氣憤委屈壓抑。喜歡對方的同時，也喜歡自己。
       大家都想尋找李大仁，也知道李大仁是編劇爲了又青和自己創造出的“最好朋友”。不管有沒有機會認識李大仁，《我可能不會愛你》這部好劇提醒我許多重要的東西，太多經典好詞。捨不得，卻結束了。五點鐘的人生既然轉動呢。
      
                                                                                                              jy

Work Christmas Party

Dear S,

           Today I went to workplace early Christmas party at the bowling alley. It's nice to see bosses attending and colleagues of different department and age, coming together for a night out. It doesn't matter whether you are a good player, the most important thing is the enjoying it, and have a good laugh when the ball missed and hit down the alley, or when having a strike! Well, I noticed the more I want to hit the pins, the more the ball go down to the alley! Of course, not practicing makes it harder to spontaenously hitting the ball. Anyway, we had fun. :)
                         
                                                                                              jy
                                
                                                  
                                                                                           
     

心疼

M,

         沒有心痛沒有心跳過了幾個冬。
        心卻因又青和大仁而開始酸疼。
         難受。 

                                                    jy 

對自己好

S,

        工作上爲了顧客上司和其他人的需求而進行團團轉的協調，傷身傷神，可能沒有肯定，更可能失敗。所以，放工后，就對自己好一點。吃想吃的，做想做的，慰勞自己。
        如果沒人獎勵你，就自己獎勵自己。
        即使世界抛棄了你，你還有自己，所以就對自己好吧，做對得起自己的事。
        因爲世上只有一個你。
                                                                                                                       jy

朋友

M和K：

        朋友不需多，只要知心就好。
        可以舒服對待、 暢所欲言、 開懷大笑、分享分擔。
        能有如此朋友，真幸運也很快樂。
        謝謝你們。

                                                                                       jy

Smile

Dear Y, 

           I like the song "Smile" , music written by Charlie Chaplin, lyrics by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons. The effect of smile is powerful, yet I know sometimes I'm stingy about it, which makes me look uglier and colder. It's nice to be at the receiving end, as the mood and even a day can change reacting to the infectious smile. While smiling can be effortless, it could be the opposite a well, when one is not open hearted, or not happy. There was a research many years back to encourage people to forcefully smile, in order to trick the brain to release endorphine, in order to articifically creates happier feelings.
           Anyway, keep on smiling. :)

                                                                                                               jy

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
you’ll get by
 
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through
for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just
Smile

Tony Bennett's Duets II

S，

            星期六夜晚。雖然是個放工后的夜晚，和朋友出外吃飯后的夜晚。
            可因爲Tony Bennett Duets II裏的舒服歌聲和音樂圍繞著我，讓我覺得異常放鬆。有種假日Saturday Night Fever 的感覺。
            感嘆Lady Gaga原來可以唱的這麽好。寶刀未老的Tony Bennett和每一個歌手的完美搭配，除了說故事，也感動了我，心裏被灌入滿滿的幸福，多的是溫暖。
            沉醉于如此的聲樂裏，不醒也罷。

                                                                                                 jy
         

牛肉麵和部落格

Ｎ友：

　　　　昨天做了牛肉湯麵。想起了Ｑ和Ｂ市的越南牛肉麵。在異地迷上了別的亞洲國家食物，是不是有點奇怪？不再只是追求家鄉美食，只要是能讓人想起家鄉的美食也可以。你也有沒有這種經驗呢？
　　　　看了以前的部落格。想說的話很多，寫得東西也很多。近幾年部落格文寫得少，字也更精簡，或是吝嗇了。可能是工作了比較沒有時間。也可能年紀增加了，比較不那麽憤世。也可能讀者減少了，所以也沒有天天寫。當然也可能我退步了？變得沒主見，麻木或不在意了。
           你也很久沒寫了。當然之前你經營多年的Friendster Blog突然消失不見也是原因。最可能你在真實人生中找到目標和更該花時間的地方了。雖然如此，如果你打算回到部落格圈子，可要通知我呢。


                                                                                         jy

小病

Ｍ，　

　　　　病后才知健康可貴。
　　　　這是忽略身體後果。
　　　　告訴我要吃好睡好運動。
　　　　身體只有一個啊。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　ｊｙ