匆匆的農曆新年和十年的夢想

YQ,

         我匆匆的離開了T城。和媽在B城吃了最簡單的團圓飯，觀看在Skype的另一頭吃團圓飯的家人。然後在年初一于E鎮開始了新工作。結束了四天多的工作，又和媽會合，然後又送機。周末和老朋友見面敍舊談新，也打電話和伯父伯母拜年。明天又得飛到R城，再駕車到B鎮工作。
         謝謝你稍微告訴我家鄉的新年同學聚會是如何。我希望自己能在那兒，而不是在工作。不敢相信我們畢業已有十年了。 十年，是既長又快似的一個歲月單位。 我現在身邊沒有那本紀念冊，所以不記得大家在“十年后的我”寫了什麽。可每一個人大概也記得自己當初寫的是什麽吧，有沒有實現當初的預想和盼望，都心裏有數。夢想如果還在，就繼續追吧，不管過了個十年，還是兩三個。因爲今天的我永遠失去昨天的青春，而明天的我卻是有許多可能的變數。那就為能讓自己今天心跳激蕩的夢想， 用力愉快的活著和奮鬥。我們還年輕啊。
         祝你
龍年安康
                                                             
                                                                                                                  jy
                                             

餞別

MY 和K友，

         今天收拾東西，才真切的感到就快要離開這裡了。
         今晚的餞別晚餐/升級晚餐一如往常，開心的閒話家常。
         沒有把即將的離別挂在心上。
         現在雨夜裏竟有百般不捨。
         不去想不提離別是爲了不感難過，走得瀟灑。
         未來難料：一別多久？我們還熟嗎？ 會再見？沒有把握。
         但肯定的，現在我是不捨，也感謝你們兩年來的扶持、 關心、陪伴和導航。
         尤其是今年，更讓我覺得朋友貴精不貴多。
         祝福你們心想事成。 保持聯絡。：）

                                                                                      jy

Frustration of a continuous arguement

Dear M,

            No thanks to you all trying to gang me up today with the same old question, which you refuse to listen and believe whatever we say. No thanks to you all that troubled me write this letter at this hour, with hope that will allowing me to sleep tonight.
            I kind of regret for losing my cool today, flustered, angered, trying my best to explain the protocol that the authority recommend, the definition of "observe" , not your definition of  "observe", which you clearly stilll not accepting. I regret because why do I try so hard and get boiled up, perhaps making myself looked flustered and unprofessional, to get into an argument with a stonge person, and a bunch of people who clearly do not believe a single word I say. Why did I fight when I'm about to leave soon? I regret because I did not call for higher help at that point, and holding the fort alone in the enemy's land. And obviously, I will lose, but not without a fight. And it was a fight that was unintentionally, yet exploded due to consistent harrassment of the same issue and the same outcome due to stubbornness to understand, to learn and to change.
           Of all the silly and ridiculous statements you made, I thought I did alright to deflect them and debate them, yet I wished I was smoother and slicker. And perhaps, I should have just said what my senior has later suggested: "I'm not going to get into an argument. If you have any concern, talk to my boss directly. " Or perhaps include what MY has suggested "I'm sure they will listen to your valuable opinon. ", which would have easily annule the tension and I did not have to loose my cool. And perhaps, I should have better and simpler direct to the point explanation. "That's our recommendation. If you don't do it, it will be your responsibility for any complication." " If you don't do it, we will just PRIME you."
           All we are asking is just a simple procedure to those client who are at risk! That's all. And you are making a big fuss of it!
           Honestly, it all came down to you being lazy in doing a simple procedure, refuse to take responsibility, closed minded, and worry about not being funded. You do not want to change. You influence others with what you believe. You trust your own experience instead of research and findings. However anecdote is not based on research. You do not care for you client at all.
            And in the end, since it has been an ongoing issue, why did you all harass me again and again with the same issue, while I'm just doing what my boss asked me to do? Did the others get the same? Isn't it a form of workplace bullying? Or is it truly like what the others said, there's racial discrimination in it as well?
             I do not know whether my explanation has make a difference today, or perhaps made me more of an enemy now, making the whole situation worse. And perhaps I'm just overthinking about it, and people forget about it, and life goes on. Should I take this further? Definitely I need to let my boss know about it.  But to what extend I should do it? Will all my effort be in vain? And what am I fighting for? 
             I wish I can sleep now. I wish things will change. I wish they would listen. I'm tired.
             
                                                                                                              jy
           

A

A,

         你不斷求進的欲望、堅持、自信和成功，讓人欽佩。
         也許這就是凡人和不凡之別。
         也多情善感，溫暖細心。
         如太陽的你，再看自己，就覺慚愧。
               
                                                                            jy

委屈得來的成果

S,

          如果莫名其妙的受罵，然後得到盼望的答案，是不是就不算是一種委屈?
          難受的感覺，是不是會不見，如果我專注于結果。
　
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五味

MY，

      一秒興奮，
      兩刻憂慮，
      三分傷心，
      四時大笑。
      起落不定。
      荷爾蒙吧。

                                     jy
      

Moving

Dear M,
             I thought I have plenty of time. But time is flying quickly.
             There's so much to organise in a move.
             And I'll be a nomad again.
             So why do I want to move again?
             When will I stop moving?
                                                                             jy

New Year 2012

Dear K,

        On 1.1.2012,
                I was watching fireworks by the sea with mum in C city.
                I was vomiting in the boat that roamed on the reefy sea.
                I was snorkelling watching colourful fishes eating seaweeds.
                We were driving in the dark for 4 hours.
                YJ was travelling at another part of the world. 
                MY and L were working.
                Someone was recovering from New Year hangover.
                A colleague had ended life. 
                What were you doing?
             
        Hope you have a better new year in 2012.
                                  
                                                                                  Best wishes,
                                                                                    jy