To care more.

Dear B,

            Your tears in the staircase are heartbroken.
            You worked so hard today to prevent every outcome.
            Yet everything just did not go as planned.
             I feel guilty.
            Perhaps I should have cared more, about you, and the problems you are facing, instead of giving advice without personally seeing the problem.
            Perhaps I should be more proactive, be more involved, instead of just worrying about other nitty gritty stuff that I haven't done.
            I see myself as equal, even though I have 2 and half years more experience, but honestly, not in this field, so perhaps that was my wrong too, to allow you to bear all responsibility, to see you as equal, and devalue myself? 
            I should have cared more. I will care more.
   
                                                                                                             
                                                                                                                        jyc